This Day That Year

It’s impossible to hold on to something, no matter how bad you want to.

Since last 2 years, I too have been trying to get back what I had, what I thought I did. But even after all those efforts, all you get is some disappointment, some awkward loser like feeling, and some lewd comments.

Thanks to "anniversaries" that are constant reminders of that very special day, which now generates intolerable ache because this year this day it’s showing how miserable you have become or how dramatically things have change.

This day, that year things were different, but again, it’s okay, its okay because its almost like a process, if things suck today, they have to get better tomorrow because when you are at your worst there is only space for betterment.

On the brighter side it teaches you that every living piece on this Earth has their time, the time where they shine, start believing in vanity and get used to being pleased. And then again, everyone has that time, where you need to question, again and again, what went wrong, where did you slip, how did it start. But things are temporary, today you must be working for people who once served you. That probably must have scarred you inside, n kill the will to just BE.

Probably the place was new where every one had to start together but you refused to come back down at the runway for a fresh flight, maybe you flew too high where no one could see you, and you lost your way and fell hard. But its okay, once learnt the skill, no falcon forgets how to fly. Recollect those broken wings, let some blood flow, have a solitary walk by the beach, don’t anymore think of what happened, stop analyzing, stop regretting, just prepare for redemption. Smile! :)

And those who think you are a ‘lost in thoughts dummy psycho’ kinda guy tell them, “You don’t know me bitch and don’t give me that snarky grin, mind your stuff or now watch as I fly!”